Wednesday, December 8, 2010
what are you reading?
The new shoes felt good at the time of purchase. The Starbucks latte warmed me up until I drank it all. The expensive sweater worked until the new style hit the stores. And I felt good about the way I looked until I saw my friends looking better. Since none of those worked...there must be something out there that would.
I was miserably depressed and searching for something to make my heart feel full.
Yes, I was even a redeemed-child-of-God at the time.
But I had left my first love.
I sought after those things that were right in my own eyes. Little did I know, those Israelites and I have all too much in common
Yet, now. In this moment. In present-time. I sit here. In the stillness. The quiet. Reading God's word. And it feels good long after I bought my Bible. It warms me up even after I've drank it all in. It never goes out of style. And when I view myself in the mirror of "the Word", I see the beauty of God in me.
My heart feels full. I am satisfied. And now that my palette has tasted food of a "holy" quality. It wants more.
I am a far-cry from a perfect wife, mother, friend. I never feel quite up to par. I strive, everyday, to be better. I want to learn more (a constant urge in my life). I 'm not sure, however, if that's the Christian, the teacher, or the Michelle in me.
Whichever it is, I want all the help I can get.
Now, instead of the self-help section...you can find me browsing the "God"-help books. Because time has shown, He can help me a whole lot better than my-self.
And that has made all the difference.